Will it ever stop?

[LoveMyGirlz]

I posted in my "Lexxi" thread yesterday that I was feeling sad after receiving a condolences card from her neurolist office. This meant alot to me because the Dr and his techs really knew Lexxi and I know it broke their hearst too. So I cried for the first time in a few days. I found myself crying a couple times today and then I get the call saying "she is ready to pick up." So when they handed me her little box....I wanted to fall to the floor with it, but of course I turned and walked out as fast as possible. It's her little box!! Now I can't stop crying again! They spelled her name wrong on the plaque but I couldn't stay long enough to cause a fuss. I actually have a beautiful urn picked out that will hold her picture and her dog tag off of it, so I guess they don't have to change the spelling on this box.
Oh I'm just sad dammit. I don't want to cry anymore..........

[Dina_Nichole]

I'm so sorry your going through this. I wish I knew something to say to make you feel better. Sending prayers your way.

[celstu1]

awwww I feel for you so much! I lost a baby almost 2 years ago, I remember how sad I felt for sooo sooo long! I got 2 new boys about 2 months after my pup passed and I still missed my baby! you will eventually remember the fun times and be able to look back with happiness, but it takes awhile, like everything else in life! Im sorry you are in so much pain! As someone who can relate to losing a pup (he was not quite 5 months when he passed), I feel your pain. I have my boys urn on my hutch in my dining room, I don't care what anyone thinks about that. I need to see his pic, it helps to remind me how grateful I am to have my boys now, even on 'bad days' (((HUGS))) to you!

[tiggerr36792]

Awww as sad as it is to have lost Lexxi...Think of it as having your precious little baby back home now with your family where she belongs. She won't be suffering, hurting, or having any bad times now ...All she will have is to be able to be home resting in peace as comfortably as God has made it. Lexxi is now watching over your family and making sure your sad times go away now Mom!!

[diggy4]

I am so sorry. The pain will lessen but never go away. Lexxi was your baby and OWNED/OWNS a piece of your heart forever. Of course you will always miss her. Im crying just typing this post. Don't try to get over her as much as remember her. The good...her eyes...her little quirks....her smell. Just let it all out and things will turn around. Be sad, cry do what you have to. It will turn I promise. Take your time. Soon you will channel those empty feelings into brilliant memories of a baby who helped you be who you are today. Take care and I am praying for your emptyness to fill into happy thoughts!

[mizzwanned]

I'm so sorry. It's so hard, I know. I hope you feel better. She is resting in peace now with absolutely no pain.

[paulapoo]

Everyone's right. I lost my Shorty dog in 2004 and I can still talk about him and get choked up. Of course, I think he was the greatest dog ever. He was misdiagnosed by an imcompetent country vet who didn't know liver shunt. I only figured out what it really was myself because of YT, but that was 2 yrs after he died.. I think about how with diet and medicine I could've given him a longer life. I would burst into tears several times a day for at least a month. He was 3 when I got him, and 8 when he died. But, we sure had some good times together!! I remember him every day, I still have several of his pictures up in my house. I'll still talk about him to anyone who will listen. So if you have some stories about you and Lexxi you want to share with us, we're all ears.. Sending you hugs, and crying along with you. You did everything you could for her, she knows that, and she loves you for it.

[diggy4]

Ill listen to anyone!!!! Im right here!

[TeddyandTiffy]

Maybe time will heal U're broken heart? I don't know, Someone stole or killed our Kipper around 2 years ago, he was a mutt but we loved him and it still bothers me today. I even called the police when he came up missing, we got a warning from someone about a week before that but he came back to us, then we didn't think anything about it, he was on a leash outside (didn't have a fence out back then and he was a bigger dog) and we got a better one thinking that the clip had come undone and Justin even said he wouldn't get off that one cause it couldn't hardly get it on his collar, well then about a week later here someone had taken plyers and cut it, left his tags & ring laying there in our back yard. Well about a week after that my and my oldest daughter found his collar laying in the side yard. U tell me. I KNOW he's either passed on or someone has him in a house or he would of come back. He came back the 1st time they let him go. It's sad tho and bothers me still to this day. He was a pretty dog and played football and loved us and our kids to peices as we did him. It is hard to go on when they are not there with us. My girls still talk about Kipper and we all still miss him. God will heal U're broken heart. U're in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs, Lee and Babies

[Anna Banana]

Oh, I am in tears with you...I know how much you're hurting. We all know that it really won't ever stop hurting, she's your little girl forever, and there will be days years from now that you'll cry just like you are now, because something reminds you of her. But it will get easier to live day to day, and be happy, knowing that she is in a better place, waiting for you. I bet she can't wait to look down from heaven and see you playing with your new little one, because she'll bring you so much joy! In the meantime, you will continue to be in my prayers.

[Betty'sMom]

I am so so sorry. I know the pain seems unbearable. I'll say prayers for you and for your lost baby.

[Wylie's Mom]

It is so devastating to lose a fur baby - they are so innocent, loving, and pure. It's a huge loss and it takes a lot of time for the pain to lift - but it does lift, it does get better.

Just remember that you gave her a grand home, a grand love, and a grand life!

[chachi]

I am so sorry. It will get better in time hun

[PANAMA69]

O my so sorry about your loss, I don't ck the memorial (fallen yorkies) becuase is so hard for me, I loss my cat few years ago, it was so fast too, I still miss her very much she was a cat with a dog attitude, no one teach her to fetch and she did fetch,she was so funny,she was very special cat, last weekend Phoebe's best friend, Salina the wolf died too, she was twelve, she loved Phoebe my yorkie so much, she was very protective of her, so I knew that no dog will try to hurt my Phoebe when we were at the park, I feel so bad for my friends too, I can't help but for them and for you

[SJK1113]

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how you are feeling, but I know that if I lost Jake, I don't think I could take it. It takes time to go through the grieving process. It's hard.