Light at the end of the tunnel - MAYBE?

[ChicagoSoul]

Thank you very much for your warm words. It helps to know that people care.
For those of you who want to see Manya, there is a link to my dogster cite for her.

http://www.dogster.com/dogs/455803/in/stroll/

My new girl's name is Dulcinea or Dulce, which means sweetness in Spanish.
Dulcinea is taken from "Don Quihote" by Miguel de Servantes. The main character, sad knight Don Quihote, was in love with lady Dulcinea.

[Doodlebug]

Her pictures are adorable. Your story is very touching. I'm glad you found someone who also loves dogs so you can spoil your new baby together. I love the name you picked.

[Dan & Corinne]

We went through a similar stituation with Jewel. We waited 8 months to bring home new puppies to love but like you, we were so scared of these two having serious illness that can take them away from us prematurely. We were so worried that we would compare the new pups to Jewel. That it wouldn't be fair to the new ones. But, we learned each pup has their own personality and each is just as precious. They have wrapped their little paws around our hearts and we love them dearly. We will always have a hole in our heart for Jewel.

I'm so sorry for your loss of Manya. She can NEVER be replaced. But the new baby will bring you new love and joy. She is beautiful. Congratulations.

Have you given her a name yet?

[ARCHIE]

Your story was a very sad one and I am so sorry for the loss of Manya.
You have found yourself another baby to love and that is what you need
to heal your heart. No new pet will ever replace Manya but you have lots
of love to give and I am so happy for you. She is just beautiful. I am sure
you will both be inseperatable in no time. Good luck and I look forward
to watching her grow up on YT.

[IluvLucy]

I'm so sorry about Manya.............

But your new baby is truly beautiful I pray that you can open your heart as well as your mind to the love this little one has to offer

[LoveMyGirlz]

Wow...Thank you for sharing your Dogster page. I am sitting here sobbing. I understand some of the regrets you are having, but you really can't beat yourself up this badly! You did what you could for her and like you said, you would have never left her side had it didn't look as though she were going to pull through. I know she knows how much you loved her and what she meant to you. I send you strength and prayers through this difficult time...

[Saleswman]

I am a friend of your breeder and I will tell you this.....your little girl will change your life.....she is the sweetest girl ever....I saw her at her home and admired her little spunk and prissy attitude.. Her coat is gorgeous as is her face...I am sorry for your grief, but your new little girl will be soon the center of your world.....

Best wishes!!!

[Patti]

I am so sorry for your loss. Your new baby will etch her place in yor heart. Fortunatley our hearts are big enough to love many furbabies and each one is special in their own way.

[rxybabe17]

I am so sorry for your loss. I am going to through a very similiar situation. I lost my little girl not quite 2 weeks ago we had had her for a year and a day when she died she was only 14 months old. She got sick Wednesday and died Thursday. I am really want to get another one and I have found one she is only 6 weeks old right now and also has a open fontella and it is small too. I am having the same feelings you are that what if something fatal happens to her and what if I don't have the love for her that I had for Summer. I think that the best thing to do is to get a new puppy just like you did. My fiance and mom didn't think it was a good idea, but I talked them into it. Just like someone else said I believe that there will always be hole in my heart for Summer, but I will love the next one just as much. They are all soo different and thats makes them special. I hope everything turns out good for you. I am sure it will. Again I very sorry for your loss. I understand completly.

[Ozzie'sperson]

So sorry to hear about Manya. It is so incredibly hard to lose one whether they have been with you for a week or for a decade.

I think you have done a wonderful thing though for both you and your new baby. While clearly Manya cannot be replaced, another baby can give you a dedicated space to put all the love and attention you can no longer give to Manya. There is always one out there in need of it.

Welcome to your lucky new baby!

[yorkieusa]

I'm so sorry for your loss of Manya. She was beautiful. It's heartbreaking. Your new puppy is beautiful and she is sooooo lucky to come to a loving home like yours.

[PANAMA69]

Originally Posted by ChicagoSoul

Thank you very much for your warm words. It helps to know that people care.
For those of you who want to see Manya, there is a link to my dogster cite for her.

http://www.dogster.com/dogs/455803/in/stroll/

My new girl's name is Dulcinea or Dulce, which means sweetness in Spanish.
Dulcinea is taken from "Don Quihote" by Miguel de Servantes. The main character, sad knight Don Quihote, was in love with lady Dulcinea.

She is adorable(que bonita ) love the name Dulcinea, I just got flash back in school when I was reading Don Quijote de la Mancha the test was hard but was worth it. Sorry for you other baby, so glad that you have given another baby the opportunity to have a wonderful home like yours

[mizzwanned]

I'm so very sorry about Manya. She was beautiful. You must have been so devastated. My London is sick right now with a respiratory infection and I am worried sick, hoping she will get better. I am so glad that you were able to get another dog and she is just gorgeous. I love the name Dulce by the way.

[ChicagoSoul]

Thank you very much to everybody who replied or felt like replying.
The showing of support has been overwhelming. For those people who are going through the same situation, remember that you are not alone. There are good hearted people on this forum that are capable of such degree of compassion and love that is truly rare in this day and age.

You will hear some ignorant individuals say that our loss should not devastate us because each of us has lost "just a dog." It is not true. What we lost is a piece of heart where each mother stores the love for her only precious baby. When the baby is gone, this heart aches and bleeds.

Like so many of us on this forum who went through a similar experience, I did not want another puppy. My mother and my boyfriend talked me into having it. I simply went along with their decision. However, it was the best decision under the circumstances.

The experience of nurturing another baby has been incredibly healing. Dulce, even though she is just 9 months, has been behaving as if she understands something. She is constantly all over me. She follows me everywhere and gets excited over every little thing. Her love and her devotion fill the void. It is very empowering to be needed and wanted, and loved so much. Every little milestone in her life starts to feel, once again, like my own personal achievement as a mother.

To me, this concept of being validated as a mother was no less important than the possibility of having a loving companionship every day. Once I lost Manya, the first thought was that I failed as a parent. I should have been able to save her and I did not. That's where, I believe, my lack of desire to have another puppy came from. It is the fear of failing again that drove me to burry the idea of ever getting another Yorkie.

It is not over for me yet. The pain is still there. Most likely, it will always be there. I cry periodically, especially when I see Dulce fitting into Manya's clothes or sleeping on her bed. I also cry when I see her running away from me because the resemblance with Manya just before she died is striking. I call Dulce Manya sometimes. Not intentionally. It just slips from my tongue. It makes me sad. But you know what, I am capable of loving this tiny creature and loving her strongly. It feels phenomenal to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

[AMD]

Originally Posted by ChicagoSoul

It is not over for me yet. The pain is still there. Most likely, it will always be there. I cry periodically, especially when I see Dulce fitting into Manya's clothes or sleeping on her bed. I also cry when I see her running away from me because the resemblance with Manya just before she died is striking. I call Dulce Manya sometimes. Not intentionally. It just slips from my tongue. It makes me sad. But you know what, I am capable of loving this tiny creature and loving her strongly. It feels phenomenal to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

That is so heartbreaking to read....Sorry to hear about your little Manya.