Read about Cookie/ Remembering Kissy.

[Frostbittenbuds]

I'm new here and just stumbled onto the story of cookie. Brought back some sad memories for me! Thought I would share! Sorry it's such a long one. Hard to sum it up any other way.

I've only made a few posts but mentioned I had my last yorkie 16 years. Since I was a little girl I always wanted a yorkie and as a grad present I got my wish. I got my baby girl when she was 8 wks old and she was the only one in the litter. I was instantly in love and named her Kissy! Over the next 16 years life progressed as it should. I got married and had three children, blessed with 3 boys. Kissy remained the princess and I now the Queen. Everyone loved her! I owned a flower shop and she always came to work with me and was like our mascot. Always pretty with bows, dressed for every occasion. People always came to see what she was in for Halloween. Her last year she had aged so much her sight was bad, hearing less and she really slowed down. My husband tried to brace me that she might leave us. All this I knew would eventually happen I just hoped it would be peaceful. So I treasured all those snuggles.

How it ended.

It was September and we had gone to spend the weekend with my sister inlaw at her home 3 hours away. On the way out of town we had stopped at a Costco to get a few things. About two minutes after leaving the store I looked back to check Kissy in her bed as she was there when we came back to the car. She wasn't there? We pulled the car over I was absolutely frantic. Thinking she has to be somewhere in the car. Freaking out asking my sons in the back if they had seen her jump out? Went flying back to the store so afraid she may get run over if she was in the parking lot. Asked all around the store and found out an employee had took her home already. I guess she went right into the store. This all happened in about a 15 minute period we probably passed this person in the driveway. This person had no phone? Bizarre who doesn't have a phone? But she was scheduled to be back at work for the following Tuesday at one o'clock. This was Sunday. I felt relieved that someone had her but just wanted her back. Left all my contact info at store, phoned all shelters in case she was dropped off. My sister inlaw phone everyone she knew asking if they knew this person and no one did. So all I could do was go home and wait. I went home the 3 hours away but just wanted to wait right at that store. My husband had to work and my son to school on Monday. I had to just hope they were looking after her, but still phoned that store at least twice the next day. Tuesday came and my sister inlaw was going there for 12:30 to be there if the girl came early so she would be able to get her right away. Then I was going to drive to get her as soon as my husband got home from work. So I could leave the children for what was going to be a 6 hour round trip. So I'm waiting anxiously beside the phone at 1 just praying she gets her back and this can be over. I had been crying over this for days trying not to fear all the worse case scenarios that had been running through my head. This girl is 2 hours late for work! Grrrrrr! I was beside myself with worry but she showed up and she had her at home. So my sister inlaw picks her up and she tells me she is trembling and breathing like she's stressed! I just want to get in the car and go get her but had to wait til my husband got home. Before he gets home I hear again from my sister that she has found my pyjamas I have left there. She laid Kissy on them and she said she settled right down. Stopped trembling and seemed so comforted, fell right asleep. Probably from exhaustion from the stress she had felt. ( This happened 7 years ago, I still can't tell this story without bawling my eyes out) My husband got home from work it was dark out already and had started to snow. Yes snow in September!!! I live in Canada! My husband said Kissy was in great hands and that he would feel better if I went when it was light in the morning. Also we were hoping it would have quit snowing. Seemed like the reasonable thing to do. My husband set up for his mother to watch my boys and I was going to be on the road for 7 am. I phoned the sister before bed at 10 to check on her and she said Kissy had only a bit of cheese but drank some water and was sleeping on my p.j.s My mother in law came at 6:30 I could tell as she walked toward the house something was wrong. My sister inlaw had phoned her because she just couldn't tell me over the phone, Kissy had died in the night. I insisted on still making the trip to go get my sweet baby girl. They had wrapped her in a blanket and I sat there a very long time holding her trying to absorb it all. I remember telling her how sorry I was. i felt like I had so failed her. I never in my wildest dreams thought it would end this way. To say I was devasted doesn't even begin to describe the emotions I felt.
All the what ifs, she shouldn't have got out, how did I miss that? She usually had a collar with I.D. Hadn't put it back on after recent spa day. Wished the girl had a phone. My husband felt so guilty for not letting me go. My sister inlaw felt so at fault that she maybe had missed something. I person can go on and on. At the end of the day all you can do is accept that this is the way it ended. Kissy was my child with fur. I have to remember all the great things and not focase on the ending. Very hard.
After reading the story of Cookie I realize how lucky I am that I at least got to see her one last time. My heart goes out to Cookies mom! I see she stopped posting here. I understand she must feel she has to move on.

On a lighter note after 7 years I'm the new mommy to Emry and Elliot! Totally in love again. I am a freak that something could happen to them. They are getting chipped, have I.d. and they don't get outa my sight. I never want to go through that again! They remind me everyday of Kissy and bring us such joy! Thanks for taking the time to read this.

[Mistymillar]

Such a very sad story. It was her time and she could smell and be comforted by you at the end even if you weren't there. So glad you now have two other little darlings.

[Patti]

I am sorry for the loss of Kissy. I am glad she was at least with your SIL on your PJ's and not with a stranger. I can't imagine how difficult that had to be. I am glad you have Emry and Elliot to give your love to.