Update on handling my loss of Keelyn

[Laurn7f]

I finally scrounged up the courage to post on here again. I just wanted to let everyone know who saw my post before about Keelyn that I am doing okay. I have cried all my tears and can even think about her without shedding one. I didn't think this day would ever come.

As for Mya, my new baby, she is fantastic. As soon as she acknowledged me as "mommy" my heart healed a little bit. As much as I loved Keelyn and miss her like you have no idea, I do love Mya just as much and she has been my therapy.

God I haven't really sat down and thought about the incident in this much detail in days...tears are starting to come again...time to wake Mya up from her nap so she can cuddle me back to contentment.

Thank you everyone for your support through the loss of my first baby. Hopefully I am over the hump and will be able to post on here lots again. After all, it took time realizing the toys and food and bed are now Mya's things and not Keelyn. This forum is similar, she was what sparked my membership, and now it is to help me in raising Mya. Sigh...

Thank you everyone again.

Lauren and Mya

[bchgirl]

I'm glad Maya is helping heal your heart. They never replaced the first...but they do allow you to love another and laugh again.

For a long time after I'd gotten Ramsey....Trace's things were off limits. Those had been put away....I didn't get out any of his things until after I got Reese...2 years after Trace's death.

ETA - didn't see the pictures until now...she's very cute. Love the head cock.

[Timmy]

Oh sweety it takes time. When I lost Lilly a year ago I coudn't come on YT so I took some time away from YT. I must have been gone for about 6 months. I still cry when I talk about or think about Lilly. I have my 3 babies but none can replace my Lilly. She is still a part of my life and holds a piece of my heart no matter what. It will get better but know that it is normal to mourn her loss whether its now or 2, 3 or more years from now but it will get better. I still have one thing that I cannot let go of...and its her clothes (as I am saying this I am crying) I just feel like if I let go of that I'm letting go of her. I know it might sound crazy but that is my way of keeping her very close to me. Maybe one day I'll have the courage to part with her things but for now I just can't do it.

I've been extremely emotional since last week because 7/25 last year was when I lost her.

[yorkieusa]

Sweetie, it will take time. I can still shed tears over Muffin. I'm glad you are recovering though. You will be alright in time. It's hard. I know it is. Your little Mya is so precious. She will most certainly help you heal. Take care.

[MyPeanutAbbyGra]

I'm glad you're feeling better
Most of Peanut's things were buried with him when he passed, but I hung on to a few things and just this past week, I let Abby and Daisy play with two of his toys. Since we've been remodeling, I came across a few things that were put up, like one of his scarfs and his hat. Abby and Daisy seem to be drawn to everything that used to belong to Peanut.

I still cry when I see a baby on here that looks like my Peanut did, but I try to smile and think of all the good times. It still hurts, but it's so much better. It will be 7 months in just a couple days since we lost him. I still see him were we found him in my mind's eye, that day and I feel like I get punched in the stomach every single time. I think a lot of my grief stems not only from loss, but from guilt. I totally blame myself for his death. I never knew I could love a little furbaby like that.

I love Abby and Daisy with all my heart and I always will, but they didn't take Peanut's place, but they helped to fill the void that was left. They are two of the sweetest girls ever!!!

to you and Mya.... R.I.P. Sweet Keelyn

Tammy

[MyPeanutAbbyGra]

BTW, Mya is darling!!!