I know the kind of pain you feel. My poodle Jackson died last April, I still miss him everyday. Everyone told me I should get another dog, after many months I did - and I now have Smoky - he's a Yorkie. He is so opposite of my Jackson, which is good in some ways I guess. I will never forget him, and my heart still aches for him, but it does get easier, and you will be able to smile again when thoughts enter your mind. It just takes time. My heart goes out to you and your families, furry ones included at such a great loss.