My heart aches for you. When ever we lose a life that was precious to us, we fill our minds with "What if's" and "Why didn't I's". We can't let those questions tear at us. I think all of us here have lost family members - either fur or skin or both - and we have all asked ourselves those questions over and over. I have become a firm believer in things happen for a reason. That reason may not be clear for a while, but in time, you will know. Maybe John Wayne knew there was a little furbaby that desperetely needed your love and he was willing to make the sacrifice so that little one could experience the love you gave him. Don't make yourself sick - JW wouldn't want you to do that. He would want you to smile when you think of him. He know's he won't be replaced. His special place in your heart will always be his. There is plenty of room for more special places for more little furbabies. In time, your heart will heal and you will be able to smile again. I am so, so sorry for your loss. Hugs. |